Stubbornly
seeking the next orgasm
To relish in every joyful spasm
Hours upon hours without woes
As pleasure cums and goes
Again and again and again…
Too bad, at some point, it has to end
But she’ll be reborn to cum again
As only women can
With or without men
Maybe once, maybe ten times ten
Philosophy can be understood as a system of thought. But can any system of thought, even an immoral one, be considered philosophy? Inherent to philosophy, from Greek literally meaning “love of wisdom”, is the notion of love, i.e. of a healthy (balanced) pursuit of wisdom, i.e. an equanimous and blissful existential guide. Not any form of thought or system of thought can be considered loving and wise. In the pursuit of philosophy, it is important to ask what characterizes a system of thought as love for wisdom. What is lovely about it? What makes it wise?
* * * * *
Haunted by desire, humans seek joy by having fun. But
I sit down reluctantly to capture my impressions of Saturday’s erotic ball,
where Lover and I partied hard.
Still, I made it to Mysore yoga class on Monday
morning. But yoga only brought out my true state of mind beyond all
distractions.
I feel severely depressed as I continue to mourn my
mother, 9 years after her passing. On November 1st, the day of the
great Erotic Halloween Ball 2025, she would have turned 78. I celebrated life
with other lovers instead of crying. Lovers of wisdom, lovers of sex and lovers
of fun.
Still, tears hit me hard as I picked up my serious
yoga studies and physically churned the ocean within. I had planned to devote the
day to the study of Sankhya philosophy, to typing up my extensive Samkhya
Karika notes from 3 years ago. But my youngest child was home sick, and I had
to prepare Mexican chicken soup for the healing.
I do wish to get this writing off my chest, no matter
how long it takes – it’s been almost fourteen days of distractions, including a
full week of illness.
It’s important for me to write this down because, surprisingly,
I realized during asana practice that the intoxicated events of the party weekend
revealed a useful insight into my ability to be embodied mind, Samkhyan style.
* * * * *
Sankhya Philosophy astutely captures the essence of life
(existence), which involves attention, awareness, observation, knowing, that is
consciousness.
Life – and existence in a larger, universal sense – is
a repetitious revolution of changes full of creatures (including apparently
inanimate creations such as rocks, planets, etc.) interacting with the worlds
that surround them.
Knowing (awareness of life) creates evolution. A dying gazelle in the grips of a
hungry lioness will know what it’s like to succumb. It becomes a witness to its
own death as well as a witness for the entire species. This knowledge will be
passed on generationally and genetically because food-chain-events happen
cyclically and inevitably – certainly in terrestrial terms; we could also
consider other chain-events surrounding the physical universe. This knowing will
benefit the species at large. Not every gazelle will be devoured by lions.
Furthermore,
knowing (information, data) characterizes nature per se. Only what is known can
be formed.
“According
to the Sankhya Philosophy, a non-entity can never be made an entity, that is to
say, that which has never existed can never be brought into existence […] Thus
we find the effect is always […] related to the cause.”[1]
Thus, nature
and the physical universe are engaged in a perpetual balancing act. Predators
will know to pick their prey strategically, perhaps one that was going to die
anyway. Canines and felines can smell illness.
Evolution
occurs thanks to knowing, which arises through awareness, or perception. The
perceptive phenomenon (being aware or observation) is constant. It does not
change. What is perceived changes. How it’s perceived changes. But not
perception itself.
Perception
underlies all that unfolds in nature, which according to Samkhya encompasses
the entire universe, whatever there is to perceive, to be known.
Knowing that
arises from awareness is essentially yoga. Or, in the words of Sri Tirumalai Krishnamacharya,
the Father of Modern Yoga:
“Yoga is
an awareness, a type of knowing. Yoga will end in awareness. Yoga is arresting
the fluctuations of the mind as said in the Yoga Sutras (of Pantanjali): citta
vritti nirodha. When the mind is without movement, maybe for a quarter of an
hour, or even a quarter of a minute, you will realize that yoga is of the
nature of infinite awareness, infinite knowing. There is no other object
there.”[2]
Such knowing
can greatly contribute to a better life experience, one that is more balanced
and thus more palatable and, perhaps, even blissful. I often wonder about the
evolution of the female pleasure organ with the singular function of evoking
bliss, albeit temporarily. But it is so specific and powerful that its
temporality can be drawn out to great lengths, i.e. seemingly endless “multiple
orgasms”. The clitoral complex is a very physical bridge to bliss. My lover has
expressed envy at my feminine ability to cum so much for so long. He remains
but a witness to my female pleasure that seeks to keep going undisturbed, as he
has already exhausted his. I remind him that the female cycle includes the pain
and discomfort of the severe bleeding that happens every month as well. Female cumarathons
allude to bliss yet don’t encompass it.
Knowing,
through mere perception, that we are sensible, sensuous, sensory creatures
allows for a blissful pursuit and experience of living. Nature (and the Universe
– which maybe is a multi-verse) seeks equilibrium, otherwise it couldn’t
function. If the Sun is not at just the right distance of a planet, the
conditions for life like we know on Earth will not be met. Which is why there
is no life on Earth’s neighbouring planets Venus and Mars though the Sun shines
upon them as well. The human species evolved to become bipedal, to walk
upright. This greatly affected the position of the hips, which in turn made the
act of birthing more difficult and painful. Humanity is also characterized by a
reproductive strategy with a moonthly fertility cycle wherein an unmet
opportunity to gestate is met with the bloody elimination of the unused
reproductive organ, that is in turn remade every cycle anew. Ultimately, both
the unused and used uterus be expelled from the female body, an organ that is
but a temporary feminine creation with the sole purpose of housing an incoming
soul. For the female body to develop a permanent organ with the unique purpose
of generating unmeasurable pleasure is nothing short of a most ingenious
balancing act of (human) Nature. It is clear that Nature is inherently loving
and wise.
When I was
pregnant with my first child, I was especially sensitive to my feminine
pleasure. I had never given birth, my vulvagina hadn’t been stretched nor torn
apart yet. I could only imagine the unbearable and torturous pain of giving
birth. Still, I consciously enjoyed every orgasm and leaned into it
purposefully and blissfully, aware that an inevitable experience of great
suffering was around the corner. The female constitution dictates human form,
not merely in terms of generating a baby body within a woman’s womb. For
humanity, or any species to even exist, a procreative strategy must be in
place. It is the female body that changes and expands with the creation of life.
The human body must account for its procreative demands to exist at all. Thus, female
anatomy is the basis for human anatomy (“The Female Proposition” – to be
expanded and continued).
Knowing is
captured by the limbs of yoga, i.e. svadhyaya (self-study), ishvarapranidhana
(divine contemplation), asana (postural meditation), pranayama (concentration
on the breath), pratyahara (abstract observation), dharana (concentration),
dhyana (reflective contemplation) and samadhi (intensified
awareness). It all revolves around attention, intentional or passive, around
being and becoming aware. Observation and knowledge are inherent to study. Samadhi,
complete absorption in the primal act of being aware, beyond even the senses, alludes
to constancy beyond change. In a multi-verse where everything is constantly
changing, constancy exists in perception per se.
Perception
is the witness to all that arises and passes. Furthermore, it is this very awareness,
this knowing that enables the changes to unfold, despite lying beyond change as
a constant. This is why some human traditions speak of a creative force, such
as a Goddess or a God. Sankhya Philosophy is not dualistic in the sense that
two separate entities or forces or phenomena coexist. Nature and Perception
(awareness of nature, i.e. all that is) inter-are. For, knowing through
attention and observation (perception) also feeds evolution as the cyclical
wheels of life spin and a universe manifests to the senses that perceive it.
* * * * *
Still, at the Thursday swim no cuddling is allowed, as
it is not supposed to be an erotic event, which is wonderful because nudity is
neither inherently erotic nor strictly sexual. But the intertwining of naked
bodies can lead to things…
It is thanks to the nude neutrality at the springs that
I experience a great sense of freedom in communion with other nudes. Nakedness
fills me with joy in the context of a sensual community who exercises raw acceptance,
respect and love. There’s no “body types” in this community, only bodies and no
gender only humanness.
I was surprised to find such a community exists in
this conservative American state. When we first moved here, I missed Europe’s
naked saunas and baths. Soon, I will miss the casual and extravagant sensuality
with which the body is celebrated in this wholesome American circle of naked
acquaintances, lovers and friends, whose yearly Halloween Erotic Ball is by, of
and for the people.
To be continued…
[1] The Samkhya Karika of Ishvara
Krishna with the Tattva Kaumudi of Sri Vacaspati Mishra by Swami
Virupakshananda. 1995, 1st edition. 2021, 8th print. Sri
Ramakrishna Math Printing Press, Mylapore, Chennai-4, India. page vii.
[2] From an interview as displayed in:
“Krishnamacharya His Legacy and Teachings 125th Anniversary Video
narrated by A G Mohan” – Sep.13, 2014.
Sthira Sukham Asanam @ YouTube.com
