Insomnia

Here I am: sleepless again in the middle of the night. I feel alone. Who can I trust?

The human social phenomenon at large is based on trust. Civilization is only possible through trust. When I pour my child a glass of milk, I trust that I am nurturing my child with something good. That the store where I bought it keeps it refrigerated and fresh, that the cows from which it comes are healthy and happy, that the plastic bottle contains no contaminants etc. Trust is fundamental to human interaction and to social structure.

Let's think about a common example in human interactions. What does a closed door mean? leave me be, proceed with caution, do not disturb, fuck off, I'm afraid, I feel isolated, I desire /need solitude, privacy, peace, space, alone-time etc... a breach of trust?

What constitutes a violation of trust? In German we can speak of 'Urvertrauen' which means something like original trust, that is the innate ability to trust another. Think of children and their parents. Think of friendship, camaraderie, solidarity and fraternity. Think of public transportation. Think of your house and how you trust others on a daily basis with the delivery of your electricity, water, gas and entertainment as well as with the disposal of your waste. You trust that your work will get paid, trust that the products you buy are of a good quality, that the news reflect facts etc.

Urvertrauen underlines the notion of unity in the universe: all one, related, based on the same principles and structural components. We have reason to trust each other. This ancient vein to the living heart when nurtured with love and the like will have spirits thrive in unison.

So, who can I trust? I can trust Life Force, Spirit. What does this mean? Perhaps the flow of life is guarded by basic formulas to guarantee its continuity and that everything fall into place as it needs to in order for life to thrive. Think of regeneration, reproduction, selection, adaptation. Think of the body's capacity to heal. Think of seasons and life cycles. Creatures go about their daily business as the planets turn and galaxies swirl. Like clockwork? Not perhaps, though certainly held together by a divine net of principles for the movement of energy.